“Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid.” Jesus to his disciples in Matthew 14:22-33.
“Water is the softest of all things, yet it is the most powerful.” Wayne Dyer, author.
Today’s Gospel follows immediately after Jesus seeking time alone on hearing of the death of John the Baptist but not finding it because of his compassion on the crowds following him, which results in the feeding of 5,000 men as well as the women and children with them. His second cousin’s beheading after imprisonment, the miracle that has just taken place and the growing attention of Herod and the Pharisees mean that Jesus has much to ponder. There is a sense of urgency about his need for this as Matthew writes that Jesus now immediately dismisses the crowds and makes the disciples go ahead of him by boat to the other side of the lake while he goes up the mountain to pray alone.
Perhaps leaving him perplexed the disciples, who may have been agog after what has happened and their involvement in the feeding of so many people, but they do not have a good journey. They were experienced fishermen and used to the sudden storms that can arise on the Sea of Galilee, yet Matthew writes that their boat was far from land, being battered by the waves and that the wind was against them. It seems that Jesus was in prayer for many hours as it’s in the third watch of the night, between 3 and 6am, that they see suddenly him walking on the stormy waters – and it’s not the storm that then bothers them. The terrified disciples think they may be seeing a ghost and are so afraid that Jesus has to reassure them. Their fear is understandable – who can walk on water?
Impetuously, Peter tries to as he asks Jesus to command him to come to him – “If it is you”. During his three temptations, Jesus was taunted at the start of each one with the words, “If you are the Son of God….” and so it seems that Peter is doubtful whether this really is Jesus and wants him to prove himself. Despite this Jesus bids him, “Come” and Peter steps out of the boat confidently, perhaps mindful of the earlier miracle. At first he’s able to walk on the waves but Peter’s fear overcomes him in the face of the strong wind and he begins to sink. All doubts are cast aside as he cries out, “Lord, save me!” and Jesus does so immediately. Peter’s prayer – just three words – contrasts with the flowery or lengthy prayers that can sometimes be offered so he has just enough time to pray directly and for Jesus to respond to his pressing need immediately. Perhaps we could and should follow Peter’s succinct example more often?!
Peter then lets his fear of the storm overwhelm and defeat him even though he has realised this is not a ghost when he calls Jesus ‘Lord’. It may seem harsh that Jesus then chides Peter for his lack of faith when he has found the courage to leave the boat whereas the other disciples remain fearfully within it but perhaps Peter was trying to reach Jesus through an act of will rather than trust. Nevertheless, Jesus answers his need and catches him as he comes to Peter’s rescue. As they both get into the boat, the wind ceases and all aboard realise that this is not just Jesus but the Son of God – and no ghost.
Peter makes no mention of this elsewhere and neither does St Mark in his version of this event in chapter 6 of his Gospel. But perhaps this is something we may be familiar with in our own lives? Are there times when we have set out eagerly but become disheartened and failed to rise to the challenge? Perhaps we have had a sinking feeling that events aren’t unfolding as we had hoped? Maybe having to navigate the choppy waters of illness, loss and aging threatens to swamp us or we have fallen into the temptation of wondering if God can really be a part of our lives when the world is so dark and stormy in many ways today?
It’s the anniversary today of the dropping of the second atomic bomb on the seaport of Nagasaki on 9th August 1945, so it’s also a day for remembering all those who did not survive the devastating storm cloud or have drowned in the course of warfare, fishing for a living or attempting rescue then and since. Perhaps, then, it’s helpful to notice that Jesus returns to his disciples during a storm, that he comes at the darkest time of the night just before dawn begins to break and that Peter’s brief prayer is immediately answered, despite his doubts. In the face of all that confronts us and the doubts we may have about faith, what three words could be chosen to form an urgent prayer today?
With my prayers; pob bendith,
Christine, Guardian

